Another frustrating Shabbos

Shabbos was bothersome again. It seems to be worse every week. I spent a lot of it reading Hitchens. Very interesting book. It breaks down the absurdity of religion from a number of different angles. It's a pretty easy read. I've been noticing more and more how keeping Shabbos is making my life increasingly difficult. For example, when trying to calm the baby down on Shabbos. He was crying so I put him in his bouncy chair. He loves it but he needed me to keep bouncing it. It has a vibrate option and if I just turned it on I could have caught a nap on the couch with his chair next to me. Instead I spent an hour on the floor rocking his chair. Not the biggest deal in the world but it was annoying considering I was doing it to satisfy a set of rules I philosophically don't think have any Divine basis.

Davening was a chore as usual. Just to keep things interesting, and see what I've been saying, I've gone back to my Yeshiva past time of reading the translation. I came across the following line in Shema "do not follow after your heart and after your eyes which will lead you astray." I was wondering if this line is specifically talking about "immoral relations", as ArtScroll implies, or does it also refer to faith?

I'm dreading Rosh HaShana. I'm going to be spending it with family which means missing too much of shul will result in being asked a bunch of annoying questions. On the other hand sitting in shul will mean pretending to care about Judgement Day.